Sometimes we are lucky enough to know that our lives have been changed, to discard the old, embrace the new, and turn headlong down an immutable course.
Reading that brought so many questions to my mind...
Am I lucky enough to see that my life has been changed? Discovering and admitting that I am submissive has changed me. I have to ask do I feel lucky in that change and increased knowledge of myself?
Am I willing to discard the old? Change? Oh, how we humans don't like that at all. Change can be so very scary and if I feel lucky with this change in my life does that mean I must welcome it and also welcome the discarding of the old?
Then I must also admit to myself if I keep stepping in the directions of it, of D/s, then there really is no going back. It is an immutable course. After tasting the delights to be had at the hand of a Dom could I really return to the vanilla world? Would I really want to return to a world that offered only one flavor?
I haven't all the answers at this point. Actually I don't know that I have any of them. I am willing to work through the clutter in my head to find them though.